Will The Fear Ever Go Away?

I have been on my weight loss journey for many many years. Ever since I can remember I was trying to figure out what was healthy, how I could lose weight etc

Now let’s fast forward to today. I have had weight loss surgery and I am just a few pounds from goal weight. Although I am extremely happy with my current weight, I am still fearful that one day I will wake up and I will have gained all of my weight back. I need to work at my healthy lifestyle each and every day. My meals plans have to be in check, my activity level needs to be on par. Otherwise the reality is I will gain my weight back.

Last week I was convinced I had stretched my stomach out and that I could eat way, way more then I should be able to. So I decided that I would follow my meal plan to a T today just to check and see what was going on. If I was now in the free fall zone and that all my work would soon begin to unravel. But guess what? ¬†I ate the meals in my correct portions and I was full after every meal. Not stuffed but that point just before your stuffed. I’m sure some of you are wondering hey lady why did you stop following the meal plan in the first place? Well to be clear I was still eating healthy and nutritious foods but I was also trying to clear out my freezer.

I am hoping that although I sometimes wake in the middle of the night startled by a dream that I have gained all the weight back, that as long as my fear doesn’t take over my day to day life it’s somewhat of a healthy fear.

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