So the end of our homeschooling year is upon us. Although some parents hate this time of year I love it! Our summer adventures are about to begin.
All the stress from the school year is already starting to fade away. The kids have started making their requests for specific nature trails for our hikes. They want to map out the parks that we will run around and play at. And let’s not forget camping adventures.
Can you tell I am already in vacation mode?
There are literally two times in the year when I seem to enter this magical, almost child like stare. In the fall when the air is crisp and you hear the crunch beneath your feet as you walk. And summer when you feel the warm air on your skin and get to enjoy all of our surrounds and kids laughing and playing.
Are you in vacation mode yet? What do you plan on doing this summer?
I have been on my weight loss journey for many many years. Ever since I can remember I was trying to figure out what was healthy, how I could lose weight etc
Now let’s fast forward to today. I have had weight loss surgery and I am just a few pounds from goal weight. Although I am extremely happy with my current weight, I am still fearful that one day I will wake up and I will have gained all of my weight back. I need to work at my healthy lifestyle each and every day. My meals plans have to be in check, my activity level needs to be on par. Otherwise the reality is I will gain my weight back.
Last week I was convinced I had stretched my stomach out and that I could eat way, way more then I should be able to. So I decided that I would follow my meal plan to a T today just to check and see what was going on. If I was now in the free fall zone and that all my work would soon begin to unravel. But guess what? I ate the meals in my correct portions and I was full after every meal. Not stuffed but that point just before your stuffed. I’m sure some of you are wondering hey lady why did you stop following the meal plan in the first place? Well to be clear I was still eating healthy and nutritious foods but I was also trying to clear out my freezer.
I am hoping that although I sometimes wake in the middle of the night startled by a dream that I have gained all the weight back, that as long as my fear doesn’t take over my day to day life it’s somewhat of a healthy fear.
Lately I haven’t been pushing myself as hard as I could have been in my workouts. I was juggling quite a few things and when I had the time to workout I would chose to either watch tv or take a nap.
After going on a family vacation to Great Wolf Lodge and getting some rest I decided it was time to get back to working out. I never stopped completely working out I would still go for walks etc but I knew I could push myself more.
Today I signed into my BeachBody account and picked a workout. I have been hearing rave reviews of 80 day Obsession but knew that was a little too ambitious right out of the gate. I decided to try A little Obsessed instead. I was able to complete the whole first workout. To some this isn’t a big deal. But to me this is another achievement of what my body can do now that I am finally taking proper care of it. Did I get tired? Of course I did. Did I say a few choice words in my head? Yup. But the bottom line is I was able to complete a workout.
Some people often wonder why we post pictures of ourselves on social media after a workout. It’s not to show off, well at least not in my case…I don’t even know if it’s for the people that see the posts. I think it’s about showing myself that no matter how many times I have failed on this particular day I did it. I post to go back a week, two weeks or a few months later and look at the girl staring back at me in the picture saying you’ve got this. Your strong just dig deep. I suppose it’s somewhat of a photographic journal. They always say a picture is worth more then a thousand words and from experience of looking at old pictures there are some stories behind each and everyone. Some that are spoken and others that are kept just for me.
So if I can leave you with one thing today out of all of these ramblings. I would say love yourself, take the pictures that might be painful to look at later on they are telling your story.
I haven’t blogged much lately. I’ve been busy trying to plan a surprise for the kids. The Surprise trip is now over and I can now get back to everyday life. We took the kids to Great Wolf Lodge. For anyone reading that has kids you have got to go there. Also for those thinking it’s really expensive well it can be if you participate in all the activities but we kept it pretty low key. We got a themed room and put the focus on the water park. We also saved some cash by planning ahead making a meal plan and hitting the grocery store before arriving at the lodge. With having had weight loss surgery it really doesn’t make sense for me to rely on places to have foods that my tummy can tolerate. It literally took me less then fifteen minutes to plan our menu. I knew it had to be something I could get to the kids quick that wasn’t too heavy as they would want to be back in the pool as soon as they could.
So how did I stay on track and eat healthy? What did we eat?
cereal for the kids ( since we were in the States they wanted to pick a cereal we didn’t have available in Canada)
yogurts, apple sauce, cheese string, jerky, potato chips(for the kids and husband), lunchmeat, salads , individual ranch dressings, individual peanut butters, break, deli meat, a veggie platter and a fruit platter and the kids also picked out some cupcakes and junk food
The first thing we ran out of was the fruits. I had got a platter and a medium size bowl of berries thinking it would be enough for the few days but the kids ate that up really quickly. They had lots of sammies and homemade type lunchables for meals. I had I guess lunchable type food.
We did indulge in some ice cream for a couple snacks but honestly we were using so much energy swimming I knew the tiny cup I was getting of ice cream wasn’t going to hurt anyone.
I use to think going on vacation meant an all out pig out with only eating junk food and restaurant food but I have to say I don’t feel like we missed out by eating in our room. It was actually less stressful to eat in our rooms. The kids could unwind and watch a cartoon or two and we got a break from all the noise. I think the kids will remember this trip for years to come. I know I will.
Lately I haven’t been blogging much. And to be honest it’s because I’ve got so caught up in reading blogs. Which then in turn turned into me not blogging at all. And you know what after thinking about it for a few weeks I’ve decided that as much as I want my content to be interesting to everyone I also want to be able to look back at this blog and see just how far I’ve come in my health and in my life as well. So hopefully with this new revelation I will be able to just let the words flow freely.
So I am still working on getting rid of supplies that I have kicking around the kitchen. Here’s the thing I think I’m going to change it up and instead of posting what I ate in a blog post I’ll be posting pictures of everything that I’ve cooked on my Facebook page and my instagram. That way I can actually spend time blogging about other things like new workouts and more about how life is after weight loss surgery…..
Working out to me isn’t a chore but I know to a lot of people it can be. But guess what it doesn’t have to be. There are people like me that like working out in the gym, but it can be quite expensive. I actually gave up my gym membership a few months ago not because of the cost but because I never seemed to be able to get to the gym.
So what do I do you ask? Well I recently signed up for BeachBody On Demand since I can do the workouts at home. But honestly you don’t have to sign up for any programs to get your workouts. You can go for a walk, a jog or a run if that’s your thing. You can dance your way to a healthier you. You can play tag with your kids. Or you can do what I did today which was go skating.
Over the years of yo yo dieting I would always try to stick to workout regiments that I hated but thought I had to do to lose weight. It wasn’t until I looked into all my options and really thought about what I liked that I no longer dreaded working out.
I also want to update you on what we ate today
Breakfast: everyone did their own thing I had a graham cracker since my stomach was queasy.
Lunch: Genoa salami and provolone cheese
Supper: I made home made sushi
Yesterday seemed for whatever reason to be a challenging day for me. I was hungry but didn’t want to cook. I didn’t want anything cold as I was cold and wanted a warm meal. Protein shakes and bars didn’t seem appealing at all. So what did I do? Well first I reached out to a few groups I’m on and got some great ideas. But when push came to shove last night I caved and got fast food. The kids wanted to eat Whopper Wednesday and since I was so not in the mood to cook anything.
Why am I telling you this? Well because I want you to know that I too am human. There are days when I make bad choices, there are days when I don’t feel like cooking. There are days when I am exhausted. I ate the whopper and it didn’t really do anything for me. It didn’t satisfy my hunger and it didn’t make the tiredness go away. But I can’t spend weeks thinking about this poor food choice, which is what I would have done in the past. What I took away from this is I need to be prepared. I need to have a few freezer meals ready to go for myself and the family. For some reason yesterday I was craving warmth and comfort. So I’m going to start having a few meals in the freezer that my fellow bariatric friends suggested and move on.
Don’t tear yourself down for one bad choice but also don’t keep repeating that same choice over and over again.
As most of you that have been following my page for a while know I love to cook. In fact I’m actually a trained chef! So to say that I love collecting cookbooks and recipes would be an understatement. I see every new recipe as a painter sees a canvas. I very rarely keep a recipe as it’s written, I like putting my own spin on them. A few weeks back I went thru a giant binder I had chock full of recipes and tossed the ones that we had tried and didn’t like or that I found no longer fit my new way of eating. I was so proud that I had finally done that, that I decided to tackle my notes app in my phone. Now your probably thinking oh come on how many recipes could you possibly have on your phone. Well I had accumulated 1179 recipes. Lol that’s enough that I would never eat the same thing for at least a few years. I can now proudly say that I have saved only the absolute want to try recipes in a folder on my laptop and have deleted over 900 of them if not more. I think a lot of the time since I can’t eat treats I tend to copy the recipes for a special occasion.. But then a party or something comes up and I never make the first recipe I saved lol. I also purge anything that no longer fit my lifestyle. Anything sugar laden or high in fat or carbs was deleted. It’s actually nice to not have everything on my phone. I can no longer buy groceries on a whim because I found a recipe in my notes app.
Do you have a lot of recipes/ cookbooks lying around? Of all your cookbooks, copied recipes and pinterest pins how ofter do you actually make them?