Some days are harder then others after having weight loss surgery or even just when on a weight loss journey. This morning I woke up with what I like to call fat brain.
I woke up thinking oh your so puffy today and bloated. You look huge. As these thoughts were going thru my head I was getting dressed for the day. Once I was done getting dressed I had to stop and take a minute to realize what I had just done. You see as I was telling myself that I looked fat I was slipping on my size small yoga pants and my size medium hoody. After I realized I had put these clothing on I had to laugh at myself and give myself a little talk. Rachelle seriously if you think your fat in a size small pair of pants what on earth do you consider to be thin? I stood in front of my full length mirror and actually took the time to look at myself. I was having a good hair day and my shirt looked baggy and I all of a sudden realized that my head was a little disconnected from the reality of what my body actually looks like now.
Some days my fat brain tries to pull me back into bad habits. You already look terrible today go ahead and eat that cookie or wow your a mess today have that extra cream in your coffee. If I didn’t take the time to stop, think and check my thoughts I would without a doubt regain all the weight that I have worked hard to lose.
Why am I telling you all this? Because we don’t often talk about the dialogue we have with ourselves in our heads. How harshly we are judging ourselves. How hard it can be to listen to your thoughts and then realize the disconnect with mind and body. So I am mostly telling you all this so you know your not alone and we can get rid of our fat brain talk if we just slow down and take a minute to really look at ourselves.
Ok seriously time had got to slow down! I’ve been keeping pretty busy with meal prep, homeschooling and traveling to visit my parents. Oh and then we had halloween of course.
I have to say every season, month and day I realize just how far I have come in terms of my health. This year is the second year I dress up for halloween as an adult. Last year I wore my Unicorn pj’s but this year I bought an actual costume. My daughter and I both dressed up as Snow White. I was able to walk over two hours without being exhausted, my feet and knees didn’t hurt. And I didn’t feel the need to binge on candy for the first time in my life! That’s how you know I am being successful in making my tool work for me! Here’s some pictures of my trip to Ottawa and Halloween!
This is the cheese at St Albert Cheese factory.
One of the many Sculptures at Mosaic.
A couple of pictures from Pumpkin Inferno. It’s amazing what they can do with Pumpkins!
Today we decided to hit up a local thrift store. It’s slowly becoming my new shopping wonderland. But that’s not the point of this post.
I just realized something amazing today. I can shop anywhere. I don’t have to worry if they carry plus sizes, I don’t have to worry that my size will be picked over. Because I can shop anywhere.
Another thing I realized this year is that Halloween is going to be fun. You see when your bigger your costume choices are limited at best but I walked into the thrift store and realized I can try on 90% of these costumes and they will fit! I can be whatever I want to be this year while trick or treating with the kids I don’t have to be limited to the few costumes that will fit me. The kids and I got a little excited in the thrift store and decided we needed to think our costume choices over before deciding what we will be. So in a few weeks I look forward to showing you all what I’ve chosen.
Oh by the way I didn’t leave the store without anything. I ended up finding an amazing jacket which is a good thing cause my old one doesn’t fit anymore. I was also very very excited to find a pair of rain pants so I can take the kids to the park during our raining months and join in on the fun this year instead of staying indoors.
Some days I am amazed at how much I didn’t realize what I was missing at my heaviest weight. I mean I knew I was missing out on things but I no longer take anything for granted from being able to hike and play in the rain with the kids to finding clothing I like instead of what fits. I am now living my life to the full!
Why is it that after a long weekend the first day back to reality is crazy packed! Tomorrow we are officially back to homeschooling. I have some appointments and we have an annual not back to school picnic we might be attending and or a playdate. Oh and did I mention yet that we are having a heat wave? But don’t worry I’m not letting that derail my healthy eating plans. Instead I took about 20 minutes today and got myself organized. For breakfast we will be eating some savoury breakfast cookies. For lunch I boiled some ham,cut and packed some cheese, packed the kids some crackers and myself some sliced peppers. I also knew that since we will basically be gone all day tomorrow I won’t want to make supper so I’ve defrosted some leftover meatballs that I will serve with some veggies. It took me 20 minutes to get all organized that’s it. Snacks are going to be some yogurts and fruit, hummus and veggies. I even packed some extra tuna packs and crackers in case the kids or I am extra hungry. I say it took me 20 minutes but it probably didn’t even take me that long. The thing that took the longest to do was cooking the ham and I did the dishes while boiling it so I was pulling double duty 🙂
As far as working out I think I will be doing enough running around that I won’t even need to worry about it. If I get a workout in then I will take it if not no big deal.
If you’ve been following me for a while you know I’ve had weight loss surgery. The gastric sleeve to be exact. One of the many phrases I heard when I was thinking about having surgery was your taking the easy way out. Well I am here to tell you that 20 months post surgery it is definitely not the easy way out. Nor is it the solution to having that perfect weight.
Now let me explain myself before I upset anyone. I would do the surgery again in a heartbeat I have zero regrets about having surgery. I’ve had my ups and downs dealing with some acid reflux issues and some vitamin issues, but I love the skin I’m in and that is priceless. What I mean when I say it’s not the easy way out or the solution to the perfect weight is this. Your surgery is a tool, you have to use it wisely. In the honeymoon phase after surgery you never think of food or have cravings. At about the one year mark you start to be able to eat more and you have to deal with those emotions, trust me you will have thoughts and emotions on this. Am I eating too much? What should my calorie goal be? Am I eating enough protein? Have I stretched my pouch? All these questions will cross your mind. Now listen to me carefully when these questions and thoughts come to you reach out to a fellow weight loss surgery buddy, your medical team or join an online or in person support group. I have seen men and women let these thoughts derail their progress and brought them back to old habits resulting in weight gain.
Also this tool does not guarantee that the weight will stay off forever. It’s can’t slap the food out of your hand. You need to stay in tune with your body and recognize your hunger vs your thirst or your full vs it’s really good. Some say you can’t stretch your pouch and others swear you can. Since I’m not a medical professional I can’t comment on if it can be stretched. I can however say that What I could eat before surgery, after surgery and now are all very different. I can no longer eat the quantities of food prior to surgery but I can graze which can cause weight gain.
I will forever be food journalling and working out. I will never be able to outrun my fork but I will forever be grateful for the tools my medical team and surgeon has given me.
Here’s some picture of my progress
Me last august
Me this summer 🙂
So I have been challenging myself to empty the freezer, but I am calling it quits. Why? Well because apparently this frugal mama can’t walk away from good sales on proteins. Last week I purchased 10lbs of butcher quality lean ground beef, chicken drumsticks and ground sausages that were all on sale. You see I have always been the type of person to stock up while the budget is good for weeks when the budget isn’t so great.
After buying all that meat you would think I would be done shopping right? Wrong I then went down to the states ( Hello Bellingham, WA) and I couldn’t resist a few deals there either I mean cottage cheese for 1,77$, cream cheese for 1,77$, milk for 1,99$ all these things we go thru regularly!
So what now to continue talking about my weight loss journey? Well I’m going to still share with you some recipes I’m making for my family as well as my workout routine and my daily life as a homeschooling mama.
So with that I am off to get some rest and enjoy what’s left of my holiday long weekend 🙂
I have to apologize before I even get into the post. I forgot to take pictures of my food once again. But I still want to share what I ate today and the things I’ve prepped to make the rest of the week be on track.
With everyone posting about Pumpkin Spice Lattes and fall coming I felt the need to make myself one for breakfast. I got the recipe off of the Pumpkin spice extract box I have, the only thing I did differently is I used Fairlife milk to up get my protein up. Here’s a picture of the box:
Seriously whoever the genius at Watkins was that came up with this recipe is giving Starbucks a run for it’s money because I much prefer my homemade version.
For snack we ended up at Krispy Kreme donuts today to try the new chocolate glazed original donuts. Oh my good thing we don’t like close to Krispy Kreme because that chocolate dipped donut it like heaven!
For lunch we decided to hit up our local Pita Bread factory outlet to buy some tortillas for various recipes and outings this week and then since we realized it was getting late ( it was almost 2 pm) we bought a pre cooked chicken. This chicken will last us a few days and is has saved me from worrying about buying deli meat for the next few days 🙂 Also with the bones and a few veggies it’s made this delicious broth that I am going to freeze and use for soups, stews, and other goodies.
For snack I decided to try something new. I’m trying to get the kids to eat oatmeal so I whipped up a recipe with frozen blueberries, milk, cinnamon, quick oats and a drizzle of honey. It was a hit so we might have an alternative to cereal for the kids breakfast.
Supper apparently snuck up on us as well today. Thank goodness for the pressure cooker. I made a roast beef and some garlic lemon potatoes. I’m glad I decided to make a roast tonight because like the chicken it will give me a few days of meat to make wraps or salads with at lunch. So even thou today’s meals all seemed to not be properly planned all in all we ate healthy ( except the donuts) and we are prepared for a few meals for this week.
What have you been cooking? Have you tried any new recipes lately?
A lot of people think in order to lose weight you have to invest in a gym membership. Well I’m here to set the record straight. You don’t have to spend any hard earned money on gym memberships or dvd’s or workout programs unless you want to. We are all very very fortunate to have a built in gym wherever we go. As fun as it is to lift weights and run on treadmills we don’t need any extra equipment.
So how can you get a good workout without the gym? Well walk, run, do burpees, push ups whatever you can. Check out youtube. Become a kid again and head to the park play on the monkey bars, skip rope, play a game of tag with your kids. Don’t have kids? Find a track and run or jog or offer to babysit for some friends and get moving. Don’t believe me? Here’s some pictures of how I’ve been keeping active lately.
With all that being said I personally love hitting the gym to clear my head so I do invest in a membership. I did however go for over a year without one when finances and time wouldn’t permit me to have a membership.
So how do you keep active? Do you belong to a gym? Do you do your own workouts?
Can you believe that summer is almost over already! It dawned on me yesterday that this summer is coming close to an end and I have to start planning the kids activities.
We already started establishing a homeschool routine but last night I registered the littles for their swim lessons and I still need to find a few more fun activities to keep them active during our rainy season.
With homeschooling starting it also means the instapot and the crock pot will be coming out once again to make delicious homemade meals. It also means I will be portioning out snacks and having snack bins for the kids to grab and eat.
What are some of your favourite healthy snack ideas?
So it’s been about 8 days since I updated on how the clearing of the freezer is going. Honestly I apparently suck at staying on track lol. I have actually went out and bought some chicken and a roast but I swear I’m not buying anymore food lol. I really want to be able to fit a freezer pack from the butcher in so I have to empty my freezer. I still want to keep giving you meal ideas that are healthy so here’s what we have been eating.
leftovers from the night before
ham( I made a ham for dinner and then use the rest of it up during the week so I don’t have to buy deli meat)
hummus and carrots
meat loaf made into meatballs
fish and zucchini fries
chicken with salad
ham with frozen veggies and rice
meatballs with spaghetti
breakfast for supper(pancakes, sausages, eggs)
Now I want to take more pictures of what we are eating so that’s tomorrow’s goal. I also don’t want to wait 8 days between postings. I’m hoping that by the ends of the freezer clearing I will have made myself somewhat of a simple healthy meal plan.
I’ll check back in tomorrow. Let me know what you’ve been cooking up in your kitchen.