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One Year Post OP

This year has been full of ups and downs. I got away from blogging for a while not because I wanted to but because life became a little overwhelming. I am ready to come back now that I’ve landed back on my feet.

A year ago today I was a completely different person. I was always sore, tired and I was extremely overweight. I was battling my food and weight issues and trying everything I could to lose the weight and be healthy. I had been trying to lose the weight for years and just couldn’t shed all the weight I wanted to lose. Then I had my sleeve gastrectomy and my whole world changed.

I went from being someone that was consumed with thinking about how to lose weight, what I could eat, what I couldn’t eat, when I could eat and how much I could eat to not being hungry at all. This was so freeing to me it was like the shackles had been unlocked and taken off I was no longer a prisoner of my mind and body. The hunger is now starting to come back at 1 year post op but I am in control of the hunger the hunger is no longer in control of me. On top of that I changed as a person, I went from wanting to sit and watch tv to wanting to hike, camp, kayak and enjoy all the scenery around me. I went from having trouble walking around the block to walking and running 5K’s.

Something I learned through this process is there is a lot of misinformation out there about weight loss surgery so this year I want to get this blog up and running again. I want to show all of you how I live. I want to share with you how I eat to maintain my weight. What my favourite workouts are. How I am beating cravings and dealing with things like trips. Speaking of trips I am going to Mexico in a few weeks. I am going to be conquering some new adventures while I am there. I’m going to go snorkling for the first time and I can’t wait to share the pictures with all of you but for now I want to leave you with a picture of me a year ago and a picture of me today 🙂

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The struggle is far from over

Everyone thinks that once you have weight loss surgery everything will be rosy and life will go back to normal after 6 weeks of recovery. I’m not 6 weeks post op yet but I can tell you that I don’t think this will be the case for me. I think that even if i am confident in my choice to have weight loss surgery there are tons of things going thru my head at any given moment of the day.

When you do your orientation they tell you that it takes 6 weeks for you to heal. Although I think this might be the case for the physical body to heal I don’t think it’s true off your mental health. No I am not depressed or anything but I do have a lot of fears. I fear that the surgery will be unsuccessful  and I will be obese all my life. I fear that I am eating the wrong foods. I fear I am not eating enough or that I have eaten too much. I fear I will get an infection. I fear that I will disappoint my surgeon, dietician and medical teams that have gotten me ready for surgery. I fear that I will stretch my pouch out. I fear that I will always experience pain when I eat. So although my body is healing I think my mind will need some time to stop fearing everything I’ve mentioned.

I also think that just because I had surgery once I am healed it isn’t a free pass to eat whatever I want. I think it will always be something I need to work at. What I am putting into my body and how I am burning off my calories as well.

Right now I am averaging about 200-600 calories a day. And the scale is not budging anymore. I know it’s normal to have a stall especially since I am eating so low calorie but when I get on the scale and see that I am the same or that I have gained my mind starts freaking out. So for now I won’t be using the scale, I will measure myself once a month and do my weight in when I have my appointments.

I’m sure this rollercoaster is far from being stopped so I will hang on and enjoy the ride.