Two years ago today I got my life back! This is what I looked like on the day of my surgery January 28th 2016. This picture actually stirs up a lot of emotions for me. This picture reminds me of a time in my life where I was sad, depressed, controlled by food, obsessed with losing weight, tired, in pain and just really struggling. You can actually see the defeat in my face and the emotional exhaustion I am fighting in this picture. I had tried everything I could have over the years to lose the weight on my own. I had dumped hundreds of dollars into everything from WW to diet pills. Dieticians to personal trainers. I went to bed nightly praying and asking that I would wake up the next day to be able to see my children and my children’s children. That tomorrow my mind would stop thinking about what I could and couldn’t eat. That I would wake up at peace and not riddled with anxiety over my weight.
Here I am one year post op:
Again this picture is telling the story of a 1000 words. Here you can see the stress is washed away, the anxiety is at bay, the sheer joy of getting up every morning and not being in pain, spending hours running around with the kids and playing. Not having to say a prayer nightly that I will wake up the next day to see my children grow up. Not being controlled by food. And most of all comfortable in my own skin for the first time in years. Finally having confidence in myself and not worrying what others though of me.
And this is me Today
Enjoying life to the fullest. Rewarding myself this year with not food but a membership to beach body on demand. Receiving a gift visa and instead of thinking where are we going out to eat thinking I wonder what workout gear I can get with this. My life has done a complete 360 and every day I am grateful that I am able to live my life to the fullest.
This year has been full of ups and downs. I got away from blogging for a while not because I wanted to but because life became a little overwhelming. I am ready to come back now that I’ve landed back on my feet.
A year ago today I was a completely different person. I was always sore, tired and I was extremely overweight. I was battling my food and weight issues and trying everything I could to lose the weight and be healthy. I had been trying to lose the weight for years and just couldn’t shed all the weight I wanted to lose. Then I had my sleeve gastrectomy and my whole world changed.
I went from being someone that was consumed with thinking about how to lose weight, what I could eat, what I couldn’t eat, when I could eat and how much I could eat to not being hungry at all. This was so freeing to me it was like the shackles had been unlocked and taken off I was no longer a prisoner of my mind and body. The hunger is now starting to come back at 1 year post op but I am in control of the hunger the hunger is no longer in control of me. On top of that I changed as a person, I went from wanting to sit and watch tv to wanting to hike, camp, kayak and enjoy all the scenery around me. I went from having trouble walking around the block to walking and running 5K’s.
Something I learned through this process is there is a lot of misinformation out there about weight loss surgery so this year I want to get this blog up and running again. I want to show all of you how I live. I want to share with you how I eat to maintain my weight. What my favourite workouts are. How I am beating cravings and dealing with things like trips. Speaking of trips I am going to Mexico in a few weeks. I am going to be conquering some new adventures while I am there. I’m going to go snorkling for the first time and I can’t wait to share the pictures with all of you but for now I want to leave you with a picture of me a year ago and a picture of me today 🙂
I am seriously starting to feel like the old lady in the Franks Red Hot sauce commercials, except instead of hot sauce it’s protein lol. My newest protein product is protein ice cream. With the weather getting warmer and warmer finally I want a healthy treat that will still get me to meet my protein goals. I am hoping to record and upload a vlog about all the products I’ve been trying. But here’s a list for those of you interested in my favourite protein products and it’s quite the list.
Atkins lift water (got mine at walmart)
Atkins Indulgence Bars(for when I want a chocolate bar also bought at walmart)
Syntrax comes in tons of flavours but I prefer Twisted Cherry and Fuzzy Peach it makes a great protein juice or popscicles ( got mine at a specialty shop but you can order from Amazon)
Vega chocolate protein powder with greens ( from walmart)
Premier protein protein bars especially the salted caramel one from Walmart
Premier protein shakes my favourite at the moment is the new bananas and cream ( I get them at walmart or costco)
Atkins Cookies and cream shake for when I want a milkshake type treat (got mine at walmart)
Those are just a few products so you can see why I feel like the lady from the commercial lol.
I also want to share my numbers with you since it’s been a few weeks.
Current weight 188 lbs!!!!
Highest weight 274 lbs
If you’ve read up to this point thanks for bearing with me I’m a little scattered but I want to talk with you about some struggles since having weight loss surgery. Some would think it’ a blessing to never be hungry and to not realize you are skipping meals till it’s the end of the day. At first I was one of those people. I was grateful that for once in my life I wasn’t thinking about food and what I could eat and couldn’t eat. But now that I’m almost 6 months out and I am skipping 2 sometimes 3 of my 6 meals I am getting concerned. I am trying to be more respectful of my body and treat it properly which means I need to fuel it to avoid having deficiencies or getting malnourished. Thankfully I am part of a bunch of weight loss support groups and they have been helping me. I have my Fitbit set up to go off at regular intervals so that I eat and over the past few days that has helped me a lot. So I will keep that up and hope it becomes a habit 🙂
Also here’s a link to the video if you have no idea who the old lady is with the hot sauce 🙂
I am just over 5 months post op (surgery January 28th 2016) and I am feeling great!! I wanted to share a before and after picture with you. And I want to share my stats with all of you as well. SW 274lbs CW 193 lbs
The first picture was taken while road tripping to Ottawa from Vancouver last July for my brothers wedding. The second picture was taken yesterday. It is amazing to me the difference in these two pictures. There’s also a lot going on in the pictures that you can’t see. For instance in the first picture I am thrilled to have gotten to the Winnie the Pooh statue but I am in pain. My back hurt, my hips hurt, my ankles which you can’t see in the picture are swollen and I have a smile on my face but my first reaction when I saw the picture was is this really what I look like?
The second picture however tells an entirely different story. I am finally in a dress that I have been trying to get into for months. It’s a size 16!! I am no longer in pain. I have a gap between my legs and I no longer feel self conscious. And my smile just shows how much my new life is radiating in me. I have changed so much since the first picture. I have signed up for 3 5k, I am hiking more with my family, I am camping with my family…I also have a huge list of things I want to do like learn how to skate, buy a bike to go bike riding, kayak, do more dance classes the list goes on and on.
I feel like I have been given a new lease on life and I am not going to waste one second of it worried about anything except how it will make me feel. I use to spend most of my time worrying what other people would think if I was riding a bike or skating etc and now I am simply living my life for me 🙂