Two years ago today I got my life back! This is what I looked like on the day of my surgery January 28th 2016. This picture actually stirs up a lot of emotions for me. This picture reminds me of a time in my life where I was sad, depressed, controlled by food, obsessed with losing weight, tired, in pain and just really struggling. You can actually see the defeat in my face and the emotional exhaustion I am fighting in this picture. I had tried everything I could have over the years to lose the weight on my own. I had dumped hundreds of dollars into everything from WW to diet pills. Dieticians to personal trainers. I went to bed nightly praying and asking that I would wake up the next day to be able to see my children and my children’s children. That tomorrow my mind would stop thinking about what I could and couldn’t eat. That I would wake up at peace and not riddled with anxiety over my weight.
Here I am one year post op:
Again this picture is telling the story of a 1000 words. Here you can see the stress is washed away, the anxiety is at bay, the sheer joy of getting up every morning and not being in pain, spending hours running around with the kids and playing. Not having to say a prayer nightly that I will wake up the next day to see my children grow up. Not being controlled by food. And most of all comfortable in my own skin for the first time in years. Finally having confidence in myself and not worrying what others though of me.
And this is me Today
Enjoying life to the fullest. Rewarding myself this year with not food but a membership to beach body on demand. Receiving a gift visa and instead of thinking where are we going out to eat thinking I wonder what workout gear I can get with this. My life has done a complete 360 and every day I am grateful that I am able to live my life to the fullest.
