So the end of our homeschooling year is upon us. Although some parents hate this time of year I love it! Our summer adventures are about to begin.
All the stress from the school year is already starting to fade away. The kids have started making their requests for specific nature trails for our hikes. They want to map out the parks that we will run around and play at. And let’s not forget camping adventures.
Can you tell I am already in vacation mode?
There are literally two times in the year when I seem to enter this magical, almost child like stare. In the fall when the air is crisp and you hear the crunch beneath your feet as you walk. And summer when you feel the warm air on your skin and get to enjoy all of our surrounds and kids laughing and playing.
Are you in vacation mode yet? What do you plan on doing this summer?
I have been on my weight loss journey for many many years. Ever since I can remember I was trying to figure out what was healthy, how I could lose weight etc
Now let’s fast forward to today. I have had weight loss surgery and I am just a few pounds from goal weight. Although I am extremely happy with my current weight, I am still fearful that one day I will wake up and I will have gained all of my weight back. I need to work at my healthy lifestyle each and every day. My meals plans have to be in check, my activity level needs to be on par. Otherwise the reality is I will gain my weight back.
Last week I was convinced I had stretched my stomach out and that I could eat way, way more then I should be able to. So I decided that I would follow my meal plan to a T today just to check and see what was going on. If I was now in the free fall zone and that all my work would soon begin to unravel. But guess what? I ate the meals in my correct portions and I was full after every meal. Not stuffed but that point just before your stuffed. I’m sure some of you are wondering hey lady why did you stop following the meal plan in the first place? Well to be clear I was still eating healthy and nutritious foods but I was also trying to clear out my freezer.
I am hoping that although I sometimes wake in the middle of the night startled by a dream that I have gained all the weight back, that as long as my fear doesn’t take over my day to day life it’s somewhat of a healthy fear.
I haven’t blogged in a while and I apologize for that. But tonight I actually have something to say and hope you enjoy reading the post.
Today as snack time approached my daughter asked me a question about calories in a drink she got as a treat. My daughter is only 8 so I proceeded to tell her that she need not worry about calories or anything else that mom and dad will help by having healthy food in the house. There was a lot more to the conversation but that was the bottom line.
But when did it become the norm for little kids to worry about calories and fat and healthy versus unhealthy foods? And when did it become the norm to throw a granola bar at kids instead of a piece of fruit? Not just the norm but for it to be common and normal for them to worry about food, when they should be worrying about which park we are going to go play at.
I think it’s sad that marketing use tactics to get kids to eat unhealthy foods. I think there should be restrictions. Most kids know the Big Arches of McDonalds before they can speak.
At our house we are in the process of getting rid of processed foods for the kids. But you know what, we have been so programmed to give our kids convenience snacks that coming up with snack ideas isn’t easy. But it will get easier the more we do it. We are finding alternatives that both the kids love and that we feel comfortable giving them. Let me tell you thou at the moment they are eating us out of house and home…I’ve done some research and talked to other parents and this is normal and will regulate itself once their bodies have rid themselves of certain ingredients in convenience foods.
What types of snacks do you feed yourself and your children?
Lately I haven’t been pushing myself as hard as I could have been in my workouts. I was juggling quite a few things and when I had the time to workout I would chose to either watch tv or take a nap.
After going on a family vacation to Great Wolf Lodge and getting some rest I decided it was time to get back to working out. I never stopped completely working out I would still go for walks etc but I knew I could push myself more.
Today I signed into my BeachBody account and picked a workout. I have been hearing rave reviews of 80 day Obsession but knew that was a little too ambitious right out of the gate. I decided to try A little Obsessed instead. I was able to complete the whole first workout. To some this isn’t a big deal. But to me this is another achievement of what my body can do now that I am finally taking proper care of it. Did I get tired? Of course I did. Did I say a few choice words in my head? Yup. But the bottom line is I was able to complete a workout.
Some people often wonder why we post pictures of ourselves on social media after a workout. It’s not to show off, well at least not in my case…I don’t even know if it’s for the people that see the posts. I think it’s about showing myself that no matter how many times I have failed on this particular day I did it. I post to go back a week, two weeks or a few months later and look at the girl staring back at me in the picture saying you’ve got this. Your strong just dig deep. I suppose it’s somewhat of a photographic journal. They always say a picture is worth more then a thousand words and from experience of looking at old pictures there are some stories behind each and everyone. Some that are spoken and others that are kept just for me.
So if I can leave you with one thing today out of all of these ramblings. I would say love yourself, take the pictures that might be painful to look at later on they are telling your story.
I haven’t blogged much lately. I’ve been busy trying to plan a surprise for the kids. The Surprise trip is now over and I can now get back to everyday life. We took the kids to Great Wolf Lodge. For anyone reading that has kids you have got to go there. Also for those thinking it’s really expensive well it can be if you participate in all the activities but we kept it pretty low key. We got a themed room and put the focus on the water park. We also saved some cash by planning ahead making a meal plan and hitting the grocery store before arriving at the lodge. With having had weight loss surgery it really doesn’t make sense for me to rely on places to have foods that my tummy can tolerate. It literally took me less then fifteen minutes to plan our menu. I knew it had to be something I could get to the kids quick that wasn’t too heavy as they would want to be back in the pool as soon as they could.
So how did I stay on track and eat healthy? What did we eat?
cereal for the kids ( since we were in the States they wanted to pick a cereal we didn’t have available in Canada)
yogurts, apple sauce, cheese string, jerky, potato chips(for the kids and husband), lunchmeat, salads , individual ranch dressings, individual peanut butters, break, deli meat, a veggie platter and a fruit platter and the kids also picked out some cupcakes and junk food
The first thing we ran out of was the fruits. I had got a platter and a medium size bowl of berries thinking it would be enough for the few days but the kids ate that up really quickly. They had lots of sammies and homemade type lunchables for meals. I had I guess lunchable type food.
We did indulge in some ice cream for a couple snacks but honestly we were using so much energy swimming I knew the tiny cup I was getting of ice cream wasn’t going to hurt anyone.
I use to think going on vacation meant an all out pig out with only eating junk food and restaurant food but I have to say I don’t feel like we missed out by eating in our room. It was actually less stressful to eat in our rooms. The kids could unwind and watch a cartoon or two and we got a break from all the noise. I think the kids will remember this trip for years to come. I know I will.
Lately I haven’t been blogging much. And to be honest it’s because I’ve got so caught up in reading blogs. Which then in turn turned into me not blogging at all. And you know what after thinking about it for a few weeks I’ve decided that as much as I want my content to be interesting to everyone I also want to be able to look back at this blog and see just how far I’ve come in my health and in my life as well. So hopefully with this new revelation I will be able to just let the words flow freely.
A lot of people assume things when they hear you’ve had weight loss surgery. They assume you’ve taken the easy way out. They assume all of your weight loss issues magically disappear. Well guess what? The weight issues don’t magically disappear. It takes work. Lots of work. It’s a mental, physical and emotional journey that I don’t think will ever really end. As a person that spent most of her life being obese and morbidly obese I still have struggles. Some days my struggles are mental, as in I wake up being thinking I am fat Rachelle that still looks and feels terrible. Sometimes I wake up and I am consumed by the thought of what I can and cannot eat, which is another pattern of the old Rachelle. And then there are days when everything in the world is right and I am just me. I’m not fat or skinny, I’m not thinking about food or what to eat and everything is just calm and peaceful.
However everyday I do have to work at being the best possible me. Weather it’s a mini pep talk of you’ve got this or making sure I have my meal plan in place so I don’t have to worry about calories, protein, fat and carbs that day. I have to actively work at my health, my surgery was not a cure all but rather a tool that I am grateful to have. I have to remind myself not to look back at how life use to be but to keep moving forward.
So I am still working on getting rid of supplies that I have kicking around the kitchen. Here’s the thing I think I’m going to change it up and instead of posting what I ate in a blog post I’ll be posting pictures of everything that I’ve cooked on my Facebook page and my instagram. That way I can actually spend time blogging about other things like new workouts and more about how life is after weight loss surgery…..
Food was pretty simple yesterday as we had so many leftovers from the weekend. Breakfast was banana bread bake, lunch was leftover pizza casserole and supper was leftover roast beef dinner. Today’s however I did cook again. Breakfast was a shake for me and the kids had cereal. Lunch was Sammies for the kids and leftover roast beef for me. Supper I am really excited about even thou I haven’t eaten it yet it’s cooked and packed for work. I made some meatloaf in my electric pressure cooked and mashed potatoes. My meatloaf usually takes over an hour to cook but it took about 30 minutes in the pressure cooker. That’s some major time savings for this mama. And the mashed potatoes took 10 minutes! I have to say the more I use my pressure cooker the more I love it!. Now that that’s out of the way let’s talk about sleep.
So I have some off and on insomnia issues that come and go as they see fit. Sadly that means that I can become irritable and fall into some bad habits like watching tv till 3 am and having to be awake again at 7 am. On Sunday night I was exhausted but feared that I would get all comfortable in bed only to lie there wide awake. So I decided to take some melatonin. Now I talked to my doctor about it before taking it so I encourage you to talk to you Dr as well before taking any supplement or sleep aid. I went to bed around 730 and by 8pm I was out cold and it was wonderful. It was the best sleep I’ve had in months! I woke up feeling rested and ready to take on the day. I was more productive yesterday then I have been in a long time. I was able to catch up on all the laundry including fold and put it away, homeschool the kids, play with the kids and go shopping all before work. And I didn’t even need a nap before going to work. It just goes to show how much our minds and bodies need sleep. Last night I didn’t take anything to help me sleep but I had another great night sleep and another productive day. Here’s to hoping I sleep well again tonight.