Monthly Archives: February 2016

Eating more fish

I made delicious tuna burgers for lunch today. In fact they were so good I forgot to take a picture of them. I’ve been eating more fish since surgery since it really does go down smooth and doesn’t cause me to have an upset stomach. I still want to share the recipe with all of you and once I make them again I will post a picture.

Here’s what you need:

1(6 oz) can tuna drained

1/3 cup minced onion

1 medium carrots finely grated

1/4 cup diced red bell pepper

1/4 cup light mayo

1/2 cup bread crumbs

1 large egg

1 tsp dried dill weed

salt and pepper to taste

bun and whatever fixings you want for your burger

Mix all the ingredients together in a bowl. form into a mound and separate into 4 section and form patties. Optional refrigerate for 30 minutes to make them easier to handle. Cook in a non stick pan (optional spray with cooking spray or melted butter) on medium heat for 4 minutes per side. Place patty between bun dress as your preferences.

 

I actually can’t eat bread yet and just ate the patty it was delicious , fast to prepare and nutritious. This is my new type of fast food. Even takes less time then going to the local drive thru’s.

Hope you try these and enjoy them as much as my family did 🙂

 

 

 

How long does it take you to eat?

I’ve been asked by people that are contemplating weight loss surgery how long it takes me to eat. And there really isn’t a set time I can give you because it depends on the type of food that your eating and also if your new stomach is giving you pain. I can eat cloud bread in 5 minutes and not feel any pain but I can eat two bites of chicken and feel like my stomach is going to rip open. So today while I was eating my pancake I decided to take pics as I went along. I could not finish the pancake in one sitting it’s actually two meals for me. It’s the first time I’ve had pancakes since surgery and they were delicious but quite labor intensive to eat. This was my pancake. It’s not a regular pancake I used a high protein pancake mix to make these. But this would probably take someone 5 minutes to eat well it took me 45 minutes to get thru half lol.

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Here is 15 minutes into my eating adventure

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This is a very close picture of the size of pancake I can eat at a time

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This is 45 minutes in

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And this is an hour in when I decided to stop cause I was full

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So as you can tell by my pictures eating is quite the process for me these days. I also can’t drink while eating so that can suck at times.

Hope you enjoyed the visual of how long it takes to eat for me right now. Have a goodnight 🙂

 

 

The struggle is far from over

Everyone thinks that once you have weight loss surgery everything will be rosy and life will go back to normal after 6 weeks of recovery. I’m not 6 weeks post op yet but I can tell you that I don’t think this will be the case for me. I think that even if i am confident in my choice to have weight loss surgery there are tons of things going thru my head at any given moment of the day.

When you do your orientation they tell you that it takes 6 weeks for you to heal. Although I think this might be the case for the physical body to heal I don’t think it’s true off your mental health. No I am not depressed or anything but I do have a lot of fears. I fear that the surgery will be unsuccessful  and I will be obese all my life. I fear that I am eating the wrong foods. I fear I am not eating enough or that I have eaten too much. I fear I will get an infection. I fear that I will disappoint my surgeon, dietician and medical teams that have gotten me ready for surgery. I fear that I will stretch my pouch out. I fear that I will always experience pain when I eat. So although my body is healing I think my mind will need some time to stop fearing everything I’ve mentioned.

I also think that just because I had surgery once I am healed it isn’t a free pass to eat whatever I want. I think it will always be something I need to work at. What I am putting into my body and how I am burning off my calories as well.

Right now I am averaging about 200-600 calories a day. And the scale is not budging anymore. I know it’s normal to have a stall especially since I am eating so low calorie but when I get on the scale and see that I am the same or that I have gained my mind starts freaking out. So for now I won’t be using the scale, I will measure myself once a month and do my weight in when I have my appointments.

I’m sure this rollercoaster is far from being stopped so I will hang on and enjoy the ride.

Post Op Update

Hey Everyone,

Sorry I’ve been so quiet lately. I’m trying to adjust to the puree food stage, get back to homeschooling and get back to life.

 

I was so excited about starting the puree stage but I never expected it to be this hard. I was so excited I made myself a huge omelette (picture below) I had two bites and I was stuffed lol. Well I’m happy to say it is getting easier to eat. Small portions are a must still but I can eat a devilled egg now without feeling like I’m going to bust. I had an amazing thai sauce served over a filet of fish which I am going to be making a regular item on the meal plan. I’ve also discovered that Protinis are the perfect size for two snacks. To say this has been a walk in the park would be a lie but I am still 100% convinced that I have made the right decision to becoming a healthier me for myself and my family.

 

Another victory this week is water is starting to get easier to drink. I actually finished my 30 oz bottle today and had a cup of diluted apple juice on top of that.  Everything is falling back in to place and soon the recovery will be a distance memory of the old me.

I’ve been taking some pictures since I’ve had surgery and I hope to one day be brave enough to post them but right now I’m not. Maybe by my six month mark I won’t be worried about how I looked but for now I’m still self conscious.

Now I’m going to leave you some pictures of food I’ve been eating 🙂

Here’s the omelette filled with cottage cheese I attempted to eat

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Here was an attempt at a smaller breakfast 1 egg and 1 tbsp grated cheese

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And finally the delicious Thai sauce I made to serve with my filet of Talapia. Sadly we ate before I remembered to take a picture

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This boredom is getting to me

So I had surgery exactly 15 days ago, and I am bored! The thing is I don’t have the energy to do much. Of course the first few days where all I did was sleep was amazing because as a busy mom your always wanting more sleep and I got it. But now that I’m awake and alert all day everyday it’s incredibly frustrating that I want to do stuff but don’t have the energy so I end up bored.

I’ve resorted to watching Netflix and YouTube but there’s only so many hours of tv you can enjoy before even that gets to be boring.  Even if your watching ridiculous as someone attempting to eat 10000, 30000 or even 48000 calories in a day or two.

Another thing that has become quite the chore is drinking protein shakes all day everyday. I have to admit that last night  a friend brought over some mashed potatoes for the family and I just had to have some. I managed to get 4 baby spoons in before I was full lol but it was the most delicious 4 bites ever.

I’m not trying to be negative about my experience at all but I do want someone who is thinking about getting surgery knows it’s not all rainbows and sunshine. That being said I would do it all over again in a heart beat. With everything that I am complaining about I can think of something positive that’s happening as well. My skin is a lot clearer, the weight is coming off and I am noticing changes in my body, I am not constantly stressed about what I’m going to eat for the next meal that won’t blow my daily calories.

The surgery was the right choice and in a couple weeks I will have all my energy back and life will go back to being hectic 🙂

Supplements

Check out my new youtube video about what I’m eating on the full fluid diet and the supplements I’m currently taking.

Let them judge you

let them judge you

Someone I know sent me this quote. I’ve been feeling a little down because the people that I thought are my true friends have disappeared. No not all of them but there is some that I have been surprised by their lack of wanting to come over or call to see how I am. And I  have been pleasantly surprised by some who I though wouldn’t be coming around at all. I am very happy and grateful for the friends that are supporting me and even if they can’t come over sending a quick text or calling me.

But I would be lying if I didn’t say that the friends that aren’t calling or coming around or texting aren’t hurting me. And before you say well Rachelle people are busy with their own lives. And I get that except their social media shows that they aren’t to0 busy for a quick text they simple can’t be bothered.

Sadly this is part of the process and I will get thru it. But just for the record I am not my surgery. I am an array of wonderful things. And if they can’t be bothered to see past my surgery and not be an unconditional friend then I don’t need them. I’m not saying I won’t mourn the loss of my friends but I will survive this.

There is so much more that I could say in this post but I don’t feel the need to share all the uglyness that some people have shown me. Those are their demons to battle not mine.

Post Op day 11

Today’s day 11 post op, I’m finally able to drink all the protein shakes I need to drink in a day. This is a huge accomplishment for me. I’m also getting much closer to meeting my water quota for the day.

So what exciting happened today? I went out. Ok so it was only to a dr appointment but I did go out and since the Dr was running late it turned into a 3 hour outing. By the time I came home I was exhausted and my back hurt but it was great to get outdoors and walk in the sunshine.

Besides that there isn’t much to report and I need to get to bed talk to you all later 🙂

Video

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Day 8 post op (please be aware that I am posting pictures of my stomach)

Today has been a tough day. I am still slightly sore but off of all my pain meds. The reason it’s hard is I am no longer spending most of the day sleeping I am actually having the opposite issue now I can’t seem to sleep. I feel useless I’m not allowed to do much, actually I pretty much can’t do anything right now. I’m not allowed to bend or twist my abdominal area or lift anything over ten lbs. You need to understand that I am use to being on the go 24/7 and now I can watch tv, read a book or be drinking a protein shake. Which brings me to point number 2 of why day 8 is so hard.

I miss chewing my food. Yes you read that right I miss chewing food. When everything that is going in you is liquid form its a strange thing. Your getting all your nutrients etc but you aren’t chewing anything. And I am far from being done with the liquid stage I still have 13 more days of drinking my meals. I really really miss chewing and I know that this will go faster then I think but right now I just want to chew my food.

And the third thing is that since I have slept so much in the past week that for the past two days I can’t sleep I am up till 2,3,4 in the morning reading or watching Netflix because I simply can’t fall asleep. Trust me before starting this blog I spent two hours trying to fall asleep and it’s not happening.

Now that I’m done ranting about what’s hard lets talk about what’s good today. Most of my steri strips have fallen off, the bruising is getting better and better everyday. And finally I am managing to get at 5 out of my 6 meals in daily Yay. I am enjoying my food more since I really have to slow down and can’t just drink it down and move on to the next thing. It’s also nice because I get to chat more with the kids and my husband when we are around the dinner table. I’m also starting to get 3 cups of water in daily, the medical team would like me to get at least 4 a day but for now this is a great improvement the first few days 1-2 cups of water was hard to get in.

Below I will put a picture from the day after surgery and today

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Day 8 post op

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That’s it for tonight 🙂 Talk to you soon